“If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. John 15:19
It’s not in our nature to endure hatred. Every particle of our soul burns for acceptance, for love. It was the very thing that led us to Jesus in the first place, the promise that “neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Romans 8:38-39) The world offered us many things, and they were good, though sometimes fickle gifts: admiration, acceptance, respect, belonging, even family, but not that. Not the unshakable love of God. But it’s in His nature to be hated.
“This happened that the word might be fulfilled which is written in their law,” He says. “‘They hated Me without a cause.’” John 15:25
And when we realize that, everything in our being tries to flee. We’ll break the promises we just made, three times over. We’ll keep silent because we love the praise of man more than the praise of God. We’ll testify falsely because we can’t handle the fear.
It’s not always that we don’t believe or that we don’t love him that keeps us from following. It’s sometimes that we can’t bare to be hated. We’re terrified of what the mob will do to us, so we hang back in the safe spaces. We whisper about the injustice to other friends, but only to those who we know will agree. We hide our testimony, because we’re terrified they will make space for our cross too. When He catches our eye from a distance we’re suddenly humiliated by our weakness. We hang our heads and sob, but still, we don’t dare step out of the shadows.
He warns us. He wakes us to pray. He knows we will not endure the condescending looks and snide comments. He knows that standing without him we’ll begin to doubt. Was any of it true? Did we just hear and see what we wanted to? Was he ever really the savior we thought he was?
But he promised that night not to leave us orphaned in our pain.
“And I will pray the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever— the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you. John 14:16-17 NKJV
Something that would save us from this shame. That would push us out from our hiding places and out of our sanctuaries, able to fight their hatred with the truth.
The Spirit of truth…
His word in our hearts like a burning fire
Shut up in our bones.
We would weary of holding it back,
And we would not. (Jeremiah 20:9 NKJV)
But for now, as the hour of temptation is at hand, we break the bread and drink the cup, remembering our weakness before the cross, when everything we hoped for seems to be ending. We try to remember his promises, his traditions, his mercy. Tonight we rest in the protection of the prayers he says on our behalf, that we should be kept from evil, sanctified, continue his work, and be united (John 17:15-21). Because of this we know, despite the anger and burning resentment in the world around us, despite how awful the predicament seems, we are still loved.